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Kiyotaka Ishimaru [石丸清多夏] ([personal profile] forgetbeam) wrote in [community profile] smashacademy2014-03-09 11:35 pm

[TEXT / ACTION] all all apologies

[It had been a long month of ups and downs. Mostly downs. While Hajime was able to pull Kiyotaka out of a state of self-loathing depression after his failure to bring about change to the school and subsequent removal from the Disciplinary Committee, the drawn-out tantrum that followed was a complete trainwreck for anyone unfortunate enough to come across "Ishida." But the raging emotions had taken their toll on him mentally while the few intense fights he got into wore him down physically, and eventually young Vivian finally talked him down from the brink of virtual insanity, still believing in him even after his attempts to push her away.

The first thing he did when he parted ways with his former partner was crash in one of the temporary dorms for half a day. Then he grabbed whatever he could from the cafeteria and filled his stomach, though it took a lot less to get the job done than it felt like he was going to need. Full and somewhat-rested, but still sore and emotionally exhausted, he sat alone in what used to be the Disciplinary Committee's meeting room with his hands folded on the table in front of him, in deep reflection for well over an hour.

He needed to apologize to people, that much was certain. It was also a sure thing that an apology wasn't enough, and he feared that there was no way to even begin mending the damage he'd done with certain people. But... he had to try. That was all he could do. Even if he had no idea how, there was no way he could just sit and do nothing. He was through running away; he settled on that much when he stopped hiding behind Ishida.

If only the people he most wanted advice from weren't among those he needed to speak to in the first place.

Just how many people did he need to reach out to, anyway? His memories of the past month were clouded by anger and regret, the things that broke his heart most standing out a lot more than some smaller incidents which no doubt were in just as much need of atonement. The network seemed like a good start, he decided. Efficient and wide-reaching.

And so, from a terminal in the library:]

I understand that there is no excuse for my recent behaviour. I will do everything in my power to make up for any trouble I have caused.

I must also announce that I am no longer a hall monitor or the head of the Disciplinary Committee. This has been the case for several weeks. Do not think that means that you have free reign to cause chaos.


[Yeah, but chaos is gonna happen anyway, AS USUAL.

Anyway, with that done, he lingers in the library for a little while before beginning the trek back to his dorm. He's been dreading going back for the first time since Valentine's Day, but it can't be avoided any longer. Unless he runs into someone else along the way.]
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[personal profile] iksb 2014-03-18 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ that was almost beautiful, kiyotaka ishimaru.

mukuro looks vaguely embarassed as she clambers down from the shelf and bows deeply to him. ]


My apologies, Kiyotaka-san. I will refrain from weaponry use in school aside from the assigned places and will also refrain from climbing on the bookshelves as a form of transportation.
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[personal profile] iksb 2014-03-20 09:17 am (UTC)(link)
I apologise. It will not happen again.

[ mukuro straightens up, the slight flush still on her face ]

Kiyotaka-san, may I be frank?
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[personal profile] iksb 2014-03-20 09:50 am (UTC)(link)
I greatly respect and admire you... very much so. I admire your upholding of morals, for the good of not just yourself and your friends, but all the students who are part of the same community. So I... I deeply appreciate that and...

[ mukuro's face is surprisingly tense, her lips pursed together as if trying to prevent the words from coming out because she feels like she has to say it but oh no, she can't say it. it's kiyotaka, she's in front of him, logic dictates that since he told her to say what she was thinking, she should begin and describe the swelling in her chest whenever he walks by, or the feeling in the pit of her stomach when he does something particularly admirable. ]
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[personal profile] iksb 2014-03-25 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
"I..."

Mukuro's fingernails dug into her palm as she bowed her head and took a deep breath, trying to steady herself.

"I greatly admire you, Kiyotaka Ishimaru. So much so, that it makes my heart feel unbearable at times. It's an uncomfortable feeling that was difficult to come to terms, but I... like you greatly."

You would be forgiven for thinking Mukuro was ill with the redness of the flush of her cheeks.
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[personal profile] iksb 2014-03-26 03:24 pm (UTC)(link)
This had proved too much for poor, Super High School Level Soldier Mukuro Ikusaba. She, the previously emotionless one, felt a sinking despair in her stomach. It wasn't as bad as the time that Naegi nearly died - or maybe it was. One can't really quantify despair in that way.

She chokes out a "I'll see you later," before dashing out of the library. She didn't really care that she was running. She didn't care that she might be reprimanded as she left but she couldn't control the hot wetness of tears that were now falling down her cheeks. Mukuro just needed to get away, get away far from the library and from Kiyotaka Ishimaru.

Part of her knew it was hopeless anyway.