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[Video feed gives way to a mostly dark room. A lamp in the far corner is dim, implying the bulb is likely on its last 'limbs'. Caim sits at his desk, so like the one he had before. Almost everything is the same, except the layout is a little different and the wall once filled with a mural in the making - later covered in black - is no longer there.

Idly the prince wonders what might have come of his room.

He makes no initial movements, simply sits and stares at his monitor. He seems more like a silhouette in those moments, but eventually his hands move. A bracelet on his left wrist makes a very soft sound as it meets his desk.]

Divine providence. It delights me not.

[It seems as good a greeting as any.]

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It is not for myself that there is concern.

Do not worry for a girl I set above myself. I cannot speak and I can only act and I believe without uncertainty that my actions taken on her behalf, regardless of my position, should speak more than any book or elegant speech.

Then you shall not seek her out.

[Except Caim wants to see her. Because Ai is important to him. Because he loves her. Still. He must find a way to lose Vianca's irk.]

What may I do to compromise with you?

[Big words for him. Before he wouldn't have dreamed of compromising for anyone or anything. This means something to him. Clearly.]

You were doing well in your absence.

There are some things worth fighting for.

And you've already lost with your return.

Despise me. Loathe me. And spit on me if you must.

I will remain steadfast and true to the course.

Edited 2012-11-13 06:58 (UTC)

Which is?

A cause. A worthy cause.

It would benefit you to be straight forward.

Would you be straight forward with someone who would sooner spit vitriol from her mouth than truly consider anything you have to say as possibly valid?

Yes, if such vitrol was not ill-placed. To leave worthy intentions in the shadows is to cheapen them and cast doubt over any good intention. I do not speak without reason, Caim the Human. You would do good to provide a reason to listen.

[He thinks on all she has to say for many moments and finds merit in her words. Much to his chagrin, she has a very clear and valid point. It makes him a little bit angry - but not at her.

Which is an odd sentiment.]

Have you ever wondered why I surrendered myself so easily? You are an intelligent young woman and I am aware of that. You are intuitive and you are inquisitive to some degree.

[Once upon a time they studied magic briefly with one another. He has not forgotten that.]

[And neither has she. It was part of why Vianca could see how Ai liked him so much.

Her expression has not changed in the slightest, save for a blink here and there.]

Yes. Yet I have not seen the things you have seen or done the things you have done. Any speculation was a pale shadow of the truth.

[It's not something he wants to let out in the open. But many people have already said it to him and for him - as if to force him to acknowledge it. He declines from phrasing it quite the way they have, however.]

I would sooner die than allow anything to befall your sister. [Less consideration and more vague reluctance that he is even willing to admit it...] Or you, for that matter. Regardless of what you think of it, that holds true. That is more than enough of a worthy cause to me. You and Ai are more than enough of a worthy cause to me.

[Again, there is nothing on her face. Nothing to show her thoughts, and there are indeed thoughts.

Eventually, they are voiced. Figuratively.]

You are what befell my sister. You have taught her things that no one deserves to need to learn. They cannot be erased. It is a truth that they might prove to better her. Yet it remains that she did not deserve those lessons. Why are you here, Caim the Human.

If you think I was informed that she would be used in such treacherous means then you are mistaken and I will apologise if I must for giving you any incorrect portrayal, though it was most definitely not in my control.

I can, will, and have for far greater a time than most can imagine taken responsibility for the things that I willingly did, despite my inconsideration, but I will not take the fault for something that was specifically used against me without my knowledge.

[He's pretty sure no one was more angered than he was at the circumstances that took place.]

I accept and understand your anger. I cannot undo what I did, but I can spend every day atoning for it, and that is my intention. That is why I am here.

Caim the Human. Do not misunderstand. You are not faulted for what was used against you. You are faulted as the cause, and perhaps for the effect. No matter what circumstances were in the middle, it was you at the beginning and it was you at the end. You chose your actions. You chose your departure. If you wish to atone, you will spare her. Do not take my sister's happiness again.

[It's not hard to see how displeased he is. She's saying everything that he's had going through his head on almost a daily basis.]

First and foremost, it has never been my intent to do such. That does not rectify the idea that at a point, I did what I had meant not to.

You did not ask, but I will tell you. My departure was for the basis of finding my sister, as I imagine you would have done if you were me. I lost my sister once before. I will not suffer losing her again. I chose to find a way to save a woman who could not be saved in our homeland.

[And failed, but hey. Who's counting the number of Caim's successes? Certainly not him.]

[Caim, saying you didn't mean to did not make that any less bad. That probably made it more bad.

There is nothing to distinguish the ever so slight lenience in her thought. Sisters are always worthy, but Vianca remained as stoic as ever and would continue to be.]

You did not find her.

[An observation, as a man who found what he was looking for generally did not sit alone in the dark in a place full of people that were not keen on being his companions.]

[That stings. A lot more than Caim wants it to.

He does blatantly look away. He has never forgiven himself for Furiae's suffering. He has never forgiven himself for not being able to save her or protect her. He could not keep her from becoming the Goddess. He could not keep the Empire away from her. He could not give her the happiness she so deserved.

He has spent years punishing himself already, thinking so low of himself that when others add onto it, it hardly helps the situation. But his history considering Furiae has never been 'true' justification for what innocents suffered at his hands. And once upon a time, he cared not at all for the sake of others. And somehow, someway in the academy, he had learned how to care.]

No.

[Despite his attempts. Despite sleepless nights and ever wandering feet. Despite the amount of himself he poured into it. All of it disgusts him to such a great deal, that the prince could easily wretch his innards.

The only upside to this is that Ai has told him Furiae is at the academy.]

Edited 2012-11-13 08:23 (UTC)

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