[She nods slowly. Then she sits up and turns to face him as she scoots to the foot of her bed.]

And that's part of the reason I have to apologise to Byrne. Shinon and I... It's a complicated situation. We're close, always have been. Yes, Shinon and I have spent a lot of time together. He taught me how to better my archery. We've gone drinking together at least twice. I think of him closely and I...

[There's hesitation in her features.]

I don't know what I am to him. I've never known what I was. Does he care about me? Maybe. Am I fun to play with? Probably. Shinon and I have never talked about that and I highly doubt he really wants to, but at the very least I know he enjoys having me as company.

[Then she laughs and gestures absentmindedly.]

Convoluted, right? I can't tie myself down. I can't do it until it's someone who I know is going to stay around. I can't invest my heart into either of them without knowing that it's not going to utterly destroy me. But I don't have an intimate relationship with either of them, so it's not like it's some stupid competition thing.

[But then she's never had an intimate relationship with anyone. At least not physically.]